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11th-Feb-2005 11:39 pm - something i got
> Keeper
> I grew up in the 40s/50s with practical parents. A
> mother, God love her,who washed aluminum foil after
> she cooked in it, then reused it. She was the original
> recycle queen, before they had a Name for it... A
> father who was happier getting old shoes fixed than
> buying new ones.
> Their marriage was good, their dreams focused. Their
> best friends lived barely a wave away. I can see them
> now, Dad in trousers, tee shirt and a hat and Mom in a
> house dress, lawn mower in one hand, and dish-towel in
> the other. It was the time for fixing things. A
> curtain rod, the kitchen radio, screen door, the oven
> door, the hem in a dress Things we keep.
> It was a way of life, and sometimes it made me crazy.
> All that re-fixing, eating, renewing, I wanted just
> once to be wasteful. Waste meant affluence. Throwing
> things away meant you knew there'd always be more.
> But then my mother died, and on that clear summer's
> night, in the warmth of the hospital room, I was
> struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there
> isn't any more.
> Sometimes, what we care about most gets all used up
> and goes away...never to return. So... while we have
> it... it's best we love it.... and care for it... and
> fix it when it's broken...... and heal it when it's
> sick.
> This is true. for marriage..... and old cars.... and
> children with bad report cards..... and dogs with bad
> hips.... and aging parents..... and grandparents. We
> keep them because they are worth it, because we are
> worth it. Some things we keep. Like a best friend that
> moved away or a classmate we grew up with.
> There are just some things that make life important,
> like people we know who are special..... and so, we
> keep them close!
> I received this from someone who thinks I am a
> 'keeper', so I've sent it to the people I think of in
> the same way.. Now it's your turn to send this to
> those people that are "keepers" in your life Good
> friends are like stars.... You don't always see them,
> but you know
> they are always there.
> Keep them close!
7th-Feb-2005 08:15 pm - hey
hey im bored lol. and so here i am writing in the power posse thing. Basically today was good and i just wanted to say hey u guys. I don't know im just a little bummed because i missed almost the entire weekend, so that sucks. Ne way here i am typing and listening to the Used. Not so bad...life is good. Ta Ta for now!

29th-Jan-2005 12:32 am - u guys!

Anyway u guys know how important you are to me. We have all been there for each other and i can't imagine that we wont be there for each other in the future. But the world is changing, as are people. And as we grow apart we need to stop and think. The decesions we make now will affect the rest of our lives, and i would love to be in the future of each and every one of ur lives. This may not be coming out as fluid as i may have liked, and i may be unable to apologize as well as joanna, type a poem like andrew, or find a story like michele. All i can say is how i feel and i feel strange inside. I feel like we are growing closer as we grow farther apart. We need to find our roots and stay grounded. As we all make new friends and enter new phases in our lives we have to remember those that call us their "best friends" those that shared in magick together and those that would stick together no matter what. I believe that what we have found is special and unique. We have found one group of people who truly care about all the members involved. We have forged a friendship that is tighter than words can describe. I know that when we fight it hurts deep, and when we all make up, its great. Best friends have come and gone in my life, but this friendship is eternal. I know that we will all leave high school and move on to other schools, and i know that some of us will move on, meet new people and attempt to leave the power posse behind. But that just cant happen. Even if we are not together in person, the things i've learned from all of you will stay with me forever. You guys proved to me that not all friends are bad, that i can find friends that wont ditch me because i get good grades, and i can hang out with people who accept me for who i am. I hope to god that all of you never leave my life, but i know how impossible this wish is. All of you will forever live on in my memories and all your opinions and personalities will live on in my everyday life.

          However, let us enjoy the time we have now. Lets try to make it through these last two years with our heads held high. I dont want to loose you guys now. I won't let that happen! We need to hold on to this time we have together, enjoy it while we still can. For although i will always treasure the memories...they just aren't as good as the real thing.

                                                                                                       I love you guys!



28th-Jan-2005 11:31 pm - something i found
> >
> >
> >His name was Fleming, and he was a poor Scottish farmer. One day, while
> >trying to make a living for his family, he heard a cry for help coming
> >a nearby ! bog. He dropped his tools and ran to the bog.
> >
> >There, mired to his waist in black muck, was a terrified boy, screaming
> >struggling to free himself. Farmer Fleming saved the lad from what could
> >have been a slow and terrifying death.
> >
> >The next day, a fancy carriage pulled up to the Scotsman's sparse
> >surroundings. An elegantly dressed nobleman stepped out and introduced
> >himself as the father of the boy Farmer Fleming had saved.
> >
> >"I want to repay you," said the nobleman. "You saved my son's life."
> >"No, I can't accept payment for what I did," the Scottish farmer replied
> >waving off the offer. At that moment, the farmer's own son came to the
> >of the family hovel.
> >
> >"Is that your son?" the nobleman asked.
> >
> >"Yes," the farmer replied proudly.
> >
> >"I'll make you a deal. Let me provide him with the level of education my
> >own son will enjoy. If the lad is anything like his father, he'll no
> >grow to be a man we both will be proud of." And that he did.
> >
> >Farmer Fleming's son attended the very best schools and in time,
> >from St. Mary's Hospital Medical School in London, and went on to become
> >known throughout the world as the noted Sir Alexander Fleming, the
> >discoverer of Penicillin.
> >
> >Years afterward, the same nobleman's son who was saved from the bog was
> >stricken with pneumonia.
> >
> >What saved his life this time? Penicillin.
> >
> >The name of the nobleman? Lord Randolph Churchill. His son's name?
> >
> >Sir Winston Churchill.
> >
> >Someone once said: What goes around comes around.
> >
> >Work like you don't need the money.
> >
> >Love like you've never been hurt.
> >
> >Dance like nobody's watching.
> >
> >Sing like nobody's listening.
> >
> >Live like it's Heaven on Earth.
> >
> >It's National Friendship Week. Send this to
> >
> >everyone you consider A FRIEND.
> >
> >Pass this on, and brighten someone's day.
> >
> >
> >May there always be work for your hands to do;
> >
> >May your purse always hold a coin or two;
> >
> >May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
> >May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
> >
> >May the hand of a friend always be near you;
> >
> >May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.
26th-Jan-2005 06:36 pm(no subject)
>>> ive herd it said that ppl come into our lives 4 a reason, giving something we must learn and we are lead to those who help us most to grow... if we let them. and we help them in return

well i dont no if i believe thats true but i do know im who i m today becuz i knew u, like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes the sun, like a stream that meets a boulder half way thru the woods who can say if ive ben changed 4 the beter, but becuz i knew u i have been changed for good

so much of me is made of what i leardned form u, ull be with me like a hand print on my heart. and now whatever way our stories end. i know uve rewritten mine by being my friennds... like a ship blown of his mourning by a wind off th sea, like a seed thats dropped by a bird in a distant wood who can say if ive been changed for the better but becuz i knew u i have been changed for good

and just to clear the air i ask forgiveness for the things ive done u blame me for but i guses theres blame to share but none of it seems to matter anymore

who can say if ive been changed fro the better? i do belive that ive been changed for the better and becuz i knew u i have ben changed 4 good

random blurb: i luv u guys and im realy sorry mich ill speak to u when i get a chance i luv yall
25th-Jan-2005 07:56 pm(no subject)
i love you guys. thanks for being amazing. right now, everything is kind of falling apart, and my mom is just always mad at me and joey is...i dunno whats going on with us but its not working, and you guys are the only constant in my life right now and so thank you for always being there for me i love you!!!!!!!!!
16th-Jan-2005 04:29 pm - my power posse

To my Lovelies,

I want you all to know that whenever life's got you down and you're feelin like crap, things WILL get better. It might not be ok right now, but everything will straighten themselves out. I've been in a very weird mood lately and I love you guys.

Just wanted you all to know that.

"When troubles come, they are always temporary-nothing lasts forever."-Rabbi Aryeh Kaplan.


23rd-Dec-2004 09:42 pm - So confusing

Just got back from exchanging at Micheles house. It was so incredibly awesome that i feel like crying or something b/c I'm so happy. Yet I'm sad at the same time b/c it'll probably be the last christmas with the posse since I'm moving. It made me like so happy to see everyone all cheery and hyper and crazy like we all are and to see us all hanging out b/c we haven't hung out with just the posse in a really really long time.

I can't explain like how happy i am at this very moment in time.

It's so great.

Shelly was my secret santa and she got me the bush chronicles poster ...which i absolutely love it's hanging on my wall right now and i can't stop looking at it lol. .....the gel pens...a teddy....miracle bubbles with a magic wand inside ;)....the used cd :)....and a very very very nice bracelet.

Mike made me this best friend candle with all of our pictures on it and our names and best friend forever and it's just amazing it makes me wanna cry lol. It's just so nice thank you so much.

lol I love this. so much.

Fact of the day: i love everything so much right now.

Random thing to do before you die: Experience extreme happiness

30th-Nov-2004 06:14 am - hey guys
>>> i dont have much time scince i m also doing my math hw and gettign ready for school so newayz the community looked lonely so i thaught i would write in it so what could i say about my friends that hasnt been said basicaly nothing im sure i could scrutinize u all and pick stuff out but i dnt have time so im just gunna say that u guys r so great and im so happy to have u all in my life im in such a happy mood wheee yes i m very grateful for the good friends that i have because i dont no what i woudl do without u guys heck i might still be playing with straw and toilet paper dragons/lady/suberhero lol emz see i might still be doing that so yea g2g u guys r great cya in school byez
16th-Nov-2004 09:27 pm - I've just done a bit of thinking

I've been thinking. The fact that i'm moving just sunk in. I know that i've been aware of it for a while but it just reeeeally sunk in recently. It's not definite but it's pretty sure that I'll be moving at the end of January. There's still the possibility that my mom and I will rent an apartment so i can finish 10th grade here, but it's not very likely.

I said I'd come for summers, but I'm not sure if that's possible either, all i can do is hope for it i guess and then when summer comes u'll either see me or you won't.

I'm getting mushy and I don't like it, but the truth of the matter is, I don't want to move. I really don't. Not that you were expecting me to say that I did, but everyone keeps telling me that i can't move, that they don't want me to move, asking me whats wrong with me and why I'm moving.

I'm sorry, but I can't help it and if i could, I wouldn't be moving because Ronkonkoma is the best thing that ever happened to me. I guess the reason why the concept of me moving sunk in so late is because i can't picture my life without all of you guys in it and it hurts to think about moving so i try not to when possible. Obviously talking about it can't be avoided at times, but hey, that's the way the cookie crumbles.

The timing isn't definite, but the move is. I figured once i get to Houston I'd be all new yorkerish and amaze the texans with the idea that i actually lived. (no offense joanna)...but come graduation, I'll be outa there for good. it's only 2 and a half more years i guess.

My dad calls it a fresh start for a new life, it's easier for him to say because it's an akward time to move. It's too late to restart my adolescent life, and yet too early to start my adult life. I guess you could call it the purgatory of lives...if that makes sense. I don't know much about religious terms...sorry.

I love you. so much. that it hurts.

Fact of the day: I don't want to move.

Random thing to do before you die: Have purple house slippers.

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